if the feeling is that the thought is somehow fully prevented from surfacing to one's personal mental awareness: if and will this mean(s) that there could have ever been a possibility for an idea to be arisen within the conscious (it) will be later discussed. A contention arisen as follows this are: In theory it can be noted as that a detailed thought in its developmental stage within the subconscious can be or is on the brink of exposure, that is, the presumed premise was passing through its initial stage and proximately achieved a phase in where it could be identified. The idea is that if this phantom thought had been able to have been identified in detailed fashion within the conscious, it would indeed be able to be conveyed, communicated (in some mental or social medium), or for its subject to have become noted with some detail and specificity. There is also the theory that one's mental capacity and brain functionality may be initiating a learned phantom process, that is, a step by step mechinism, either learned over time, or learned instantaneously, and thus becomes prevalent within one's mind. What will be proven is that parts of the brain and subconscious are beginning to be mimicked by an energy that is either being caused by and of one's self or by alien spirits or what have you, and frequent mimicking of certain learned sequences and procedural overtake of these learned sequences will occur without any substantial present thought whatsoever. And further, these mimicking anomalies can and will be able to identify any learned process within the self and the subconscious as a possible direct result of the process of precise operative sequences (which will be mimicked) in which one's mind has at one time learned to begin it's natural reactive thought development and experiential thought process. What this means is that neuro electrical transmissions inside of the brain have learned or have been provoked to unwarrantedly begin this phantom thought process, and further, at first, make it through a small (beginning small, then attempting larger scripts with more frequency and duration either because of or due to imperviousness shown by the specific subject and or his/her ability to be somewhat immune to the effects of this specific attempted overtake of their mind) piece of the developmental thought processes' learned mechanism without there being an "actual idea" in present or previous or in any state, even at it's earliest stages. In either theory or scenario, the previously learned intrinsic rapport and suspected feeling in this process becomes in turn both leading to unexpect/unsuspected and null outcome(s) after which such a seemingly initially learned smooth pre-transaction state, consistent, and unabated for such a long duration by routine (as previous to these attempted mimicking mental wavelengths) within one's subconscious would most likely have yielded the result of some sort of mental awareness and/or illumination of some kind. Understanding such a procedural differentiation between mental exercises, such as both/all stated theories and or activities becoming more prevelant (with more consistency, specifically in moments of identification regarding this matter within the self) in comparison to states of the mind previously conjured that have and had led to "subsequential decision/illumination" may help further define a specific isolated scenario based innate culpablity within one's self with much more precision.
Well I finally got a job again, I live next to a deep water port so now I work at the dock moving shipment on a boat to a train or truck... At 4:30 in the morning! But I get off a 10:00 am so I guess it's alright