I'll bet in the next life I'll have to save The Universe every day for minimal pay. It will be then and there that if I spend 4 pennies on something that I technically don't need on the 400,000th non needed item that has been tried to be sold to me, it will do me in so hardcore that I'll starve to death in a long slow hellish process. What...reality... However, fortuantely for me when this happens, just like now, I will have only paid attention to myself instead of paying attention to anyone or anything around me from start to finish saving me any possible troubles of thinking that anything other than that which happened to me was at all possible for me to have experienced...I...can't wait to turn 92 years old so I can finally have enough money to quit my job and get a bare bones place to eat lima beans in and lay on the floor in all day for four whole days until I croak. By then...i'll will have had enough money saved for 10 or 12 fully paid days of that. Aww damn...
This joke gets funnier and funnier every day. Eh, who knows In this life/world that at least I'm around it's not that bad yet, YET. But I do see it working it's way towards that. So I'll probably break down and start buying stuff eventually. It's just like, why in the hell would I want to only be so temporary involved in something that some hipnotist makes me fall head over heels in love with coinsiding with whatever I buy with MY hard earned dollars from them that gets swiped away from my fingers in such a rediculously short time because you're tricked out of thinking about resources. Like a domino effect. As a Merchant, why would you want to, or not be able to realize you're tricking specific people like that? Not everyone is competent or very mindful of their impulses and thoughts as I have luckly learnd to be at this point, at least I don't assume they definitely are in all circumstances. In fact I may be the closest to boiling over in a situation, but somehow I never do and I think I never will.
Wait, here's what: I want to be such a self mesmorized psuedo astro physisist that I can pay 27 full scale hard working construction crews to build a paradise for me. I just don't know what I want, I can't make up my mind. Never mind, I wouldn't feel right if I went for that because being able to pull that off is completely contingent upon being involved directly with kids and children (whether it be your children, students, or even neighbors if you are the type that thinks you can impose upon people from a far) that you feel rediculously responsible for in such a way that you are showing off what you have (that is hell to maintain, but hilarious to you to show everyone what you have to work to maintain, like a little inner joke everytime something needs to be fixed), and I don't fully understand the purpose of doing that? I know misery likes company and all. I guess there's little trinkets of joy in it, but it's too psychotic and bipolar I think. I haven't figured it out yet, but I guess that's one slight possibility that I've thought It could be about? However If It was my duty to do that, and if I thought it was needed, I'm pretty sure I could pull it off for real, not just wishy washy in trying to impose my values on children that I have to be involved with? Believe you, me. If you don't take this path you're not missing out on diddly. Then there's people who are toys/subsidiaries (which I definitely don't want to be) of money tree pickers. Because they rape a product out of you, whether these subsidiaries/people realize it or not. I really don't want that.
I've seen people in the real world who have litearlly come unbelievably close to being able to earn a modest castle for themselves. This is called real, not stupid or trying to call yourself evil in such a way that idiots get obsessed w/idiocy. Do you know how rediculously knowledgable they were. One of my best friends from a while back is part of one of these families. I would think they should have had more if it were up to me, that is if they wanted more. If there were anyone out there who could come as close as you could to knowing everything about just about everything: Geography, history, civil war, law, ect ect. Just as a representation of what our nation tells people to strive for, I think I knew em. I'm not trying to brag about someone else, but do you know how good you have to be in order to validate yourself as someone who is worthy of all that you consume, if you happen to consume a lot?
I think being good only at math will lose, especially if you stink at science as well, which is what I was supposed to be good at, and subsequently I sucked at both, just more at science.
No grey area...this or that. Do I wan't to put on a steel toe boot and be the one TRYING? to kick or be able to chill out. If you ask me to show up, I'll show up, but I'll have nothing to show for it, go figure. What a country, how American...what a life! I love life so much here, I just...want to create it, and I guess in a sense, I always have.
By the way, SoundWav, Rorylee and others, you're invited to my Mario Kart Wii tournament event I've organized. Please, sign up at: http://www.wiiwarewave.com/t3330-mario-kart-wii-tournament I'm sorry it's not here or on my board, but I had to make a choice somewhere ;) Thanks for understanding.
Cool! D&B isnĀ“t it? Well, as part of my http://www.game-xtreme.com/t278-tracks-that-could-be-future-game-music , which is my site, I suggest Dodge & Fuski and some others:
Dodge & Fuski - Aerophobia
Spoiler:
Dodge & Fuski - Void (Original mix)
Dodge & Fuski - Sick
Dodge & Fuski - Fierce
Labrinth - Earthquake Ft. Tinie Tempah) (Noisia Remix)